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I'm sitting here as my children are supposed to be napping, but instead are playing. But they're behind a closed door and they're happy, so I'm letting it be. I'm also sitting here as I should be doing housework. I have a pile of unfolded laundry right in front of me and there are crumbs on the hardwood floor that were painful to trod upon in the dark as I attended to a crying Ruthie last night. I've been thinking lately about the lies I have come to believe lately. The negative things that I tell myself about who I am.  I'm just an unmotivated individual. I used to like to write, but I can't string words together like I used to. I wish I was neat, but I'm a messy person. That's just a few. But there's more. I'm not important. I don't know. I can't figure that out on my own. I don't have a lot to say. I don't have an opinion. Anyway. Right now I'm thinking about the one where I tell to myself...

I've stumbled across the idea of morning affirmations lately. Affirmations are positive thoughts that you speak to yourself. I think the goal is that if you say affirmations enough you will eventually believe  them into being reality. So, here are some morning affirmations for your average, kind of a hot mess mom. I enjoy being a morning person. I am a patient mom who does not yell. I am happy and content with the state of my house. My children will eat what I put in front of them. I will be the kind of mom who folds laundry and puts it away. In the same day. My awesomeness as a mother has nothing to do with the abilities or instagram feed of other mothers. I believe in my ability to not swear when I step on LEGO bricks. I will choose being present over being on my phone. I am a tidy and efficient housekeeper. When I want to flip out, I will choose kindness. I acknowledge my imperfections and I will give myself grace. I believe that I'm a good mom.